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Trying to Re Enter Society Yet Again

I confess...I am an Urban Hermit. I hide in my house. I go out to buy groceries and I walk my dogs. I go to meetings when I have to. I go to just enough social gatherings to support my husband. I admit, I am thoroughly disillusioned with society and with myself but I am trying to find a more positive outlook.

Delilah-Dead and Loving It

Here is our sweet Delilah, the victim of an untimely and unexplained death. Resting in Peace in a dark mausoleum guarded by ghouls.

Someone waits for her to rise from her deathly slumber. What's taking so Long!

The perfect visage of timeless sleep. No dreams for Delilah but soon...a nightmare!

In the meantime, someone is nodding off...

Delilah opens her eyes to a strange scene. Her eyes immediately adjust to the darkness and her vision seems heightened as well. And what she sees around her...

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Where am I, she softly whispers as she looks around her. Who are you? she asks of the silent sentinels...but they do not answer her.

Wha...sleeping...I was not sleeping. I am the essence of nightmares incarnate. Who dares...

Delilah gasps as she realizes she is awakening in a mausoleum instead of in her own bed. Is she dead? Confusion sets in.

Its about time you awakened. I've been waiting here forever!

I must be dreaming! That's it...its just a very nasty nightmare. No more chocolate bon bons right before bed!

Who are you and what am I doing here? What have you done to me? Am I dead? I want my mother...now!

Get off of me you vile little creatures!

What on earth am I wearing? Is this a robe? Why aren't I cold? I can't possibly be seen in this...this...

Is that all you can do...ask questions? Look in the trunk.

What trunk...oh...that trunk. Thank you...I think...

Hmmmm, what do we have here?

I can't believe I got myself into this. Ghouls would you please give her a hand and hurry her up!

No, no! That's ok. I am doing just fine without any help Thank you. Please, just stay right there!

Very well. Just Hurry it up will you. We haven't got all night. Well...actually we do but then the sun rises and messes everything up!

Well...this could work. I guess. Better than what I am wearing now...a shroud. Its so...so, last century!

Well, we will not be needing these yet. Might as well be patient. It is not as if I will run out of time since I have been around for a millenium now.

A while later...

That's much better! Undead with style. The only way to go!

Ah, some progress at last. I thirst... Mmmm, AB-...a rare vintage.

Mmmmmm. Are these blood rubies? Hey...they match my eyes!

Thirsty Horace?

Such a glutton!

I just love these wings! I guess I couldn't get more "Goth" than this. My friends will be so envious!

And just who do you think you are?

Off with you! I have enough to deal with tonight without having unwanted passengers on my person!

Can I actually fly with these wings...um...creepy guy...

Hey! Are you listening? I think I am ready to go now.

It is about time young lady! It is not wise to make your maker wait. I could lop off your head if I desired to. Just you remember who is the master here!

(Whispering to the ghouls) Did he just call himself my master? Boy does he have a lot to learn!

Finally ready? I think I am going to live to regret this one!

Oh...look what I found! I think I will name you Fred. Oooooo, you tickle!

Gads! Would you look at the time. Half the night already wasted and I have so much I must teach you before sunrise. Put your little friend down and let us go!

Can I bring...um what are your names? You don't have names! Well, then you are Gracie and you are George. Can I bring Gracie and George? Pleeeeease!

I couldn't help myself...she had such a lovely neck. It was just screaming to be bitten. I must learn to curb my appetite a bit...mutter...mutter...mutter.

And just who invited you along!

Happy Halloween to all and to all, a spooky night!

Um.....It's been a while...

So much for daily entries. Oh well. Make this my "once in a while" blog. ;> I'm still puttering along. Not much has changed. I won an honorable mention in a doll contest. I won a new Delilah Noir doll. I am looking forward to receiving her in the mail. Here is the link to the site:
http://www.delilahnoir.com/Articles.asp?ID=236 I entered at the last minute and I didn't take the time to add the polish so I figure that an honorable mention is pretty cool. I am going to sew today. I have been getting up earlier which is a good thing. I want to start taking the corgie's for a walk each day. I went to see Doc. Brown and he said a lot of what I am dealing with health wise is directly related to all the stress I am under these days. I may call him back to ask for some blood tests so we can rule out stuff like Mono.

I have become fascinated by a story on MSNBC about a woman named Huguette Clark. She is a recluse heiress who also collects and loves dolls. Everyone is worried that she is being controlled by her attorney and her accountant. Supposedly she wants no contact with the outside world including her relatives. She has no children and is divorced. She is reported to have admitted herself into a hospital in New York. I can't help but wonder what she does all day every day. She is 104 years old. I hope and pray that she isn't just lying there in a hospital bed with no one to talk to and nothing to do. Does anyone ever read to her? Does she at least have a tv to watch? Does she ever buy new dolls to play with? Does she ever get to sit outside in a garden somewhere? I know what it is like to "go hermit".

I am tempted to send her one of my fairy dolls but I don't know how to get it past her attorney and accountant. Supposedly, all the cards and flowers sent to her are refused. The "Legal Duo" sold one of her Renoir Paintings and her Stradivarius violin under fishy circumstances and now they are selling one of her properties in Conn. Ever since the article by Bill Dedman was published there has been an outcry by the public to find out if she is ok. The Manhattan district attorney's office is looking into how Huguette Clark is being cared for and how her finances are being handled. The city Human Resources Administration confirmed it's working with prosecutors on Clark's case and has been in touch with the unnamed hospital where she lives. I hope that they work quickly so that her remaining years are filled with people who love her and will care for her. I so hope the hospital staff is kind to her and spends time with her so she isn't so alone. I think she is being isolated on purpose by her attorney and her accountant. It doesn't matter if she is rich or poor...Solitude is both a blessing and a curse.

Start of my Daily Journal 2/2/09

I haven't used my blog for a long while. I doubt that anyone will read it but I have decided to try to keep a daily journal here...starting today. A brief bio. I was born on April 16 19something in Heidelberg, Germany. I am old enough to know better but still young enough to keep trying anyway. I am 5'7'' tall with hazel eyes and hair that it sometimes brown/black and sometimes salt and pepper. I am a bit overweight but I have been losing weight because I often don't eat dinner. (I get to that time of night and I am too nauseous to eat.) I have 2 grown children, one in Tennessee and one living here with my husband Brandon and I. We live in New England in our little box that we are buying back from the bank. We have two Corgies (a male and a female) who we just adore! My little girl Fergie is asleep on my lap as we speak. I am currently and unhappily unemployed and have been approved for the medical part of SSI and SSDI. I am still waiting for the verdict on the non medical part. Brandon is a now permanent employee of the National Park Service after 5 years of working as a seasonal park ranger. Now hows that for determination. My musical preferences are very eclectical as are my movie and book preferences. More later as you get to know me. I love sewing, historical clothing, haute couture, photography, story telling and fashion/BJD dolls. I am a 2D/3D graphic artist by trade with 8+ years experience in the computer game industry. I loved creating computer art for games. Then along came Endomitriosis and Adhesions and changed my life forever.